Ben 10 Porn Story: Persevere – Chapter 4
Sometimes to do whats right we have to be steady and give up the things we want the most- even our dreams- Peter Parker a.k.a. Spiderman
A/N: This chapter was supposed to be longer but I decided to use the plot in the next chappie so you all wont be bored out of your skulls and skip some of the dialogue.
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Chapter 4: I Love You but I Dont Love You
We need a heart pulse reading, stat!
Check his breathing! I needed the BPM hours ago! Move!
Hes undergoing full body convulsion; signs of muscle spasms and difficulty in breathing.
Dammit! Check his goddamn breathing! Dont just stand there! We cant afford a goddamn casualty tonight!
Were losing him!
“We need to operate quickly!”
His vision blurred, shifting back and forth from light and pitch darkness. He could see figures, clad in gloves and masks and what looks to be headwears of some sort, surrounding him and a lot of pointy things to go around- needles, probes, electric saws, and drills? God, drills?!
Voices drowned out his thoughts; panicked, screaming voices. It was impossible to think at all or even recall his own name. What was he doing here anyway? How did he get here? When did he get here? But before he could find answers a translucent breathing apparatus was swiftly strapped on his face by an undistinguishable, blurry feminine figure and mere seconds later he felt his eyes growing heavy. No, not breathing apparatus; knock-out gas. Before he could even act he felt his vision grow dim before finally passing out.
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How is he? inquired a worried Gwen Tennyson to a doctor who had just made his way out of room 262. He was quite tall and slim. His black hair slicked back and held in place with a generous amount of hair wax. His face very distinguished and rather good-looking even the unappealing thick glasses didnt get in the way at all.
His condition has stabilized. He should be just fine I assure you. The doctor said in a monotone voice, giving Gwen a warm smile that placed her at ease a bit.
So how long will he be here? Gwen didnt feel comfortable of the bland looking grey and white halls or the dull green ferns place around which didnt add dignity to the place at all. The doors were made of thick mahogany wood and etched with patterns that resemble the bark of a tree. The door knobs gleaming with treated gold paint with a nice little Do not Disturb. sign hanging on it.
A couple of days, perhaps, maybe a week. said the doctor, readjusting his glasses. Hes quite a tough kid. Injuries are mending well- quite astonishing really. Its like hes used to these kinds of physical abuse. We believe he was hit by a car but we cant tell for sure.
I bet I can. Gwen muttered to herself with dismay.
Pardon? asked the doctor, looking at Gwen with a puzzled expression.
Ahit was nothing. Thank you doctor. Ca-can I see him now?
I wouldnt advise it. He needs to rest up first. Maybe a little later, okay? the doctor said, laughing wholeheartedly. Gwen nodded and the doctor gave her another reassuring smile before leaving- must be attending to the other patients as well.
Then she turned her attention to the person sitting at a nearby waiting bench. He had been quite all night, nervously fiddling with his fingers and rocking his body back and forth slightly. He refused to look back, although quite sure Gwen was glaring at him with angry, teary eyes.
Well, Im hope youre proud of yourself, Ben. she said bitterly, taking a seat beside him. There was also an indication of sadness in her tone.
Im never proud of doing these kinds of things. he mumbled his reply, still refusing to look at her.
Then why? What were you thinking anyway?! Gwen inquired, raising her voice a little higher but not high enough that she was screaming.
Im not entitled to defend myself? Was I supposed to just let him beat me up? Ben almost cried out.
Why would he even try to beat you up in the first place? I know Kevin can be a ruffian but even hes not the kind of person to just engage someone for no reason. What happened exactly?
I-I dont know. I really dont know. Ben said, burying his face in the palm of his hands in confusion and frustration.
Who started it? Gwen quickly asked.
I didnt- I didnt throw the first punch. I swear. All I saidall I said was for him to back off. Ben stuttered, trying his best to remember the events that occurred.
Back off? Gwen asked, looking quite puzzled.
Yeah. That he should back off- from you and from our family. Thats it and he sucker punched me. he drew out a heavy breath.
I wish I could believe that Ben but the injuries say otherwise
He almost killed me, too! How come he can get away with that! He stabbed me with a wrench for Gods sake! he shouted, standing up from his seat, catching the attention of a few nurses and doctors passing by. They stared at him icily with a startled and annoyed expression, forcing him to calmly sit back down.
Then wheres the stab mark? Gwen crossed her arms in suspicion.
I-I dont have one. I was Swampfire at the time and it completely healed- even the broken arm. He uttered, his voice fading until almost inaudible. The whole story would have sounded too coincidental for Gwen to believe it.
Uh huh, right. Gwen said sarcastically. Ben, I dont think I can trust you to be on active hero duty or even go out of your house for that matter. Youre obviously stressed, emotionally unstable and confused. Ben, Im really worried about you. She tried to sound as sincere as possible without trying to voice out what she really wanted to say. And that was too harsh even for Ben.
I was trying to protect you! I didnt go looking for a fight! Ben cried defensively.
Im sorry for what Im about to do. she recited, closing her eyes, remembering the severity of those words she heard not long ago.
What? Ben blinked, caught in a moment of surprise.
Remember what you said to me? That night you told methings. Its enough for me to assume you did start it, Ben. Gwen said grudgingly, as much as she refused to believe it. But the proof is there- and crystal-clear. Ben has surely assaulted the boy.
Gwen, youve known me your entire life. You know I would never do such a thing nor stoop that low. Id never act upon such things knowing it could hurt you. I dont want to hurt you, Gwen. Not ever. I admit I was angry, angry at Kevin because he had you- that you turned me down. I wanted to kill him. I wanted to kill him so badly but I couldnt. I couldnt cross that line. I only told him offand the rest happened as it is. I hope I still have enough of your forgiveness to trust me on this. his eyes sparkled with honesty. He didnt hesitate in his statement for even a second nor was his voice off in anyway. He was speaking the truthmaybe.
I dont know, Ben. Im just not sure what to believe anymore but- she took one of Bens hand, wrapping hers around it and gazed at him with heavy and hopeful eyes. Im really hoping you were telling me the truth.
Would you take my word for it or Kevins? And can you really take Kevins word for it? Kevin Levin? Last time I checked he made a career out of swindling and stealing, and lying. Ben said, placing emphasis on the last part.
In cases like this, Ben, its hardly as simple as that. Gwen countered, much to her dismay.
I-I dont get it. Gwen. What are you so afraid of that you refuse to believe me? Im still me, right? Then it dawned unto Ben and his expression of bewilderment turned into downcast. Its because- Its because you liking Kevin makes it hard to believe me now, isnt it? his voice was weak, barely audible and his eyes wandered off, disheartened and lifeless. Even now shes still siding with Kevin. Maybe I should have- maybe I should have just finished him off when I could have.
She pursed her lips in frustrationof herself. This charade cant go on much longer.
Youre wrong. Gwen suddenly stated firmly, snapping Ben from his ill thoughts. Its not that at all. Its just that Im afraid that youll change, that you wouldnt be able to handle us not being together. That youll cross the line you wish you hadnt. The truth isI couldnt handle it, too. Its hard trying not to feel the way that I feel about you. Thats why I wanted to be certainthat you didnt and would never cross that line.
Gwen Ben muttered, almost speechless. His eyes suddenly filled with renewed hope.
I-I just cant bear losing the Ben that I know. The Ben I always admired. The Ben- she averted his eyes for a split-second, her face completely flustered. The Ben I wanna be with.
There was an appalling, awkward silence that surrounded them. Ben, in a state of immense shock, could not ever, ever imagine Gwen Tennyson would have feelings for him, too- and lie about it. But that didnt matter right now. All that matters was that now he knew. And everything was perfect; just the two of them, here and now.
Their eyes remained transfixed, faces unconsciously inching closer and closer. They could feel their hearts racing, body going numb. Their lips mere millimeters apart as both of them closed their eyes. It felt like an eternity has passed as they waited, with much anticipation, for that one little feeling, that deliciously warm sensation, that little intimate contact they yearned -and grudgingly kept a secret- for years sinced they’ve known each other. She was so sure now that this- that this was right, was natural, was but something so innocent that repercussions were insignifant to be worth noting. Only when their lips brushed against each other did Gwen Tennyson snap back into reality and withdrew- withdrew from an almost potential kiss- much to Bens annoyance.
He groaned in aggravation, letting out a loud sigh. How come, Gwen? he finally stated.
How come what? Gwen said looking away, embarrassed by what happened.
How come every time I get closer to you, you keep pushing me away? I thought you had real feelings for me but- he paused for a moment and turned away, trying to hold off a tear You act like you dont feel anything at all.
He looked back at her, hoping his words meant anything at all. Whether or not they did he was stunned to see her crying uncontrollably.
Gwen? Gwen, are you alright? of course she wasnt but it felt like the correct thing to say anyway.
Of course Im not alright! she cried out Look, I like you, Ben! I really do but we just cant be together, okay?! What would Grandpa Max say?! What would our parents say?!
If they cared for us at all they wouldnt be against it! Ben cried back, no longer able to hold off his tears. His sudden outburst even surprised Gwen.
Ben! Please dont make this harder than it has to be! she said, almost begging We have to face facts. Were nothing more than cousins- close friends. If we started dating then this could ruin everything! And if they find out: what if I cant ever see you again? Youre a great guy and thats why I like you. Youre smart, sensitive, and selfless- not to mention good looking. There are other girls out there meant for you.
Rejected for the second time now, Ben felt like his heart just completely stopped, stone-cold. He shook his head in utter disbelief. None like you. he muttered blasely, hurt ringing in his voice as he walked past Gwen and stormed into room 262.
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A/N: I seem to be losing my flame. I don’t have that drive I use to have about writing so that’ll will be pretty much the reason for my long updates. Maybe it’s because of AF screwing BG that I don’t see the couple with much enthusiasm as I used to.